how?

do you ever have so much feeling, but no way to express it how you want to?

I have been through so much loss and gain in the past year... emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually...

I have faced things I would never thought I to face. I have seen both defeat and victory in the eyes and hearts of the ones I love the most. So much potential, so much possibility, so much pain.

I think about these things and how tragically and beautifully they all cross each other, and I wonder about who I am as a person.

Can I just say this once and get it out there? Just once that it is okay to not know. It is okay, and we can move on, and live, and be. We don't know, we don't. We try so hard in life trying to know, and some of us find out what that is, and some of us journey for it and are tormented by it, or constantly in awe of what it is, and trying to obtain it.

We hurt, we laugh, we cry, we are, and we don't know. Screwed up or monumentally great as it sounds. We are always alone, we are never alone. We are searching, and continue... we have to...