Apparently silence has prepared me for busyness. Things have been like the bad parts to office space lately for me, so much so that I have been going to bed extremely early so I can forget about all the things that have to be done. Awaiting answers from putting resumes out there is something new to me too, I shouldn't put too much into it because it is unecessarily stressing me out. It's alright though, because I can rest on Sunday. I am pretty sure that I have went past rambling now, listen to band or horses. Love You All.

Silence

Is this a spiritual crisis? Death by noise? Last night, I had a good talk with Nate about what's been going on in our lives, silence, and focus. Am I not knowing? Or am I not listening? And although we brought up the simplicity of silence, something that I have mentioned many times before, it really beats me up to think I don't take my own words to heart. I can say the right thing, but do I always do the right thing? Silence beautiful silence. I am thinking of taking a good drive and turning the radio off, seeing how that works. Until then, I'll just shut up.

I could ramble on and on. It does no good. Do my words have any bearing? If there is something that needs to be said, could you just please tell me? I deal with that much better than not knowing.

When I am down, I have good friends like JP and Jill and Dawnita to be there for me. I don't seem them every day, but they are here for me. Thank you all, I needed you this week.

I prayed for you today. Believe it or not, I did, I just got done. From family to friends and their families. From Abe to Ellis's Sisters and so many more. In all aspects I have prayed for you. Please forgive me when I love you coniditionally, I am trying. Please forgive me when I don't make time for you, I am working on it, I really am. May God break our hearts that we might grow stronger, together. I Love You and I want you to know that I have prayed for you. If you are someone who is reading this, chances are I prayed for you by name, even your friends and family. I Love You Very Much!

"I'm waiting by the phone, to hear it ring, waiting by the phone, to hear it ring"
How does your favorite musician get better? Add equal parts cello and female vocals, the results are amazing. On a side note, Rocky Votolato and J. Tillman are incredibly nice people.

Confusion can be a horrible thing. Today's goodness is that both my niece and my nephew sang to me today.

I could not resist. This picture is fastly becoming, if not already, cliche. I still love it. Not because of the finger, just look at his face!

Being sick sounds like a good way to get rest sometimes. But no, it is horrible.






Panda & Angel -Dangerous

Without Fail, every year in the weeks surrounding my birthday, I get sick.

I am at war with myself right now.
One one side my brain is telling me to be rational and save up and plan things out properly. It all sounds right, it all makes sense.

But the other side of my brain is telling me to listen more to my heart which is killing me right now because it wants me to deny my brain, my logic, my sense, and what sounds right for what I desire. I should just pack it all up with the little that I have right now, get in the car and drive to Washington.

There is only one thing that can make anyone think this.


AHHH!

I hurt and am happy at the same time. If you don't get it, call me and we'll talk.
If you have some starlight mints, hook me up.